Every Waking Day
Now you have your new friends So your finished with me I only was your main necessity When you were in desperate need When you had no one I was always there To show you love and support And let you know that I cared But then you didn’t need Someone so close to you Always shutting me out What the hell was I to do? It’s been so long And I still feel this pain Your love, it haunts...
My friends are alive, but something has died Cause I moved away and left them behind Broke my heart to make a new start Holding the memories I went back to visit my friends What we once had, has come to an end Everything’s different, and we all have changed Going home now it seems so strange Chorus: I don’t know why, maybe its me Me and my memories Sometimes when I’m sitting...
Traveling through centuries alone Branded steel, fire and stone Fighting for the ultimate prize Fighting to be the last alive Chorus: Stand and Fight, For your life Whip & bash them with all your might In fear, feel the pain Cause we’re the immortal Gods Seen so many strong men die Thousands of years before my eye Mentally drained, physically scared Never to sleep, always on guard Divide...
Walking Into Reality
My actions speak as loud as my words But my words mean everything to me So you can think what you want I don’t care…If I’m Lazy Or I’m crazy, or just Fucking up Chorus:I don’t care too much despair Pushing down on me Can’t you see what is to be Walking into reality Go be your own person leave me alone I don’t need someone like you Telling me what to do I...
Looking for piece of mind Living through these fucked up times Inner sight is making me blind Do you like to hear me whine? Chorus: Sit here and wonder how I go wrong Falling Apart, Holding On Happiness is so hard to find Living through these fucked up times I always seem to go, just a little to far Making my life, oh so hard (Don’t know why I I drop my guard) (And let the loneliness rip me...
Paradise, left behind Visions and Dreams, in my mind Stepping Out, Falling Back Do what I can, to stay on track Burden yourself, with my soul Watching time,take it’s toll What’s going on? Who’s in control Watching my life, as it unfolds I do what I want, not always my way I don’t listen, to people’s hearsay Filter out, the Fallacy Broken promise, I perceive...
Better Off Dead
Sometimes I feel I be happier dead Escape the thoughts in my head I don’t think I can take much more Everyday gives me less to live for Everyone thinks I’ve got it so easy Everyone thinks, I’ve got it made But it feels like everyone’s against me As I watch my dreams all fade My Ideas make me feel crazy Cause no one thinks they’re right Maybe I should just...
When Did Being Stupid Become Acceptable?
My first thoughts on this, takes me back to all the blonde jokes. A lot of girls started dying their and “acting dumb” so guys would like them. It became a major stereotype for girls, which to this day I still don’t understand why. Looks may get you in the door, but if there is nothing in your head or your personality sucks most guys are gone real quick. Unless of coarse,...
Up or Down, Never in Between
As far back as I can remember, I have this tendency to either be completely on top or completely on bottom, there has never been a middle ground or shall I say “Normal plain” for me. The more I analyze myself the more I realize it pertains to every aspect of my life. I’m either really happy or extremely depressed, I’m never just O.K. I first started noticing that I...
I'm Crazy, what's your excuse?
Looking back over the last few years, it has come to my attention that everyone either wants to be crazy or just thinks they are crazy. This is is quit disturbing to me, I mean when did being crazy become the in thing to be? It’s almost become a fashion statement. As a person that has been dealing with mental issues since I was young, it has entered into my thoughts more than...
My book and poetry →
Well, it’s March 8, 2012. If you would have asked me last November what my future had in store, I would say Death. For the last 4 1/2 yrs. I have been slowly dying on methadone, with no hope or will to survive. I was sleeping my life away and the methadone was consuming my soul.I had no inspiration and no drive to stop the process, I was content to die! Back in August of...
Well I guess to understand the last five yearsof my life, I should go back a to where it all started. Most of my life has been plagued by drugs and mental instability. From a young age(13) I sought out an escape. By 15, I was sent to a rehab, even though I only drank and smoked weed. This taught me how to do bigger and better drugs, my parents biggest regret to this day was listening to other...
A New Start
In Dec. of 2011, I was watching the new karate kid, I know, it sounds funny, but there is one part of the movie where Jackie Chan says “You’ve taught me that life can knock you down, but you can choose to get back up.” For some reason that line stuck with me. I decided right then and there to get off of methadone. I haven’t left the D.C. area(well except to...
Here is my one and only love song. Written in...