February 2013
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January 2013
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Hopes and Dreams
I’ve lived so many lives, love so many times Been on top an fallen over and over again I’ve seen the best and the worst That the world has to offer I’ve been told that good people prosper While that bad people never win But in the years I’ve lived and learned Nobody escapes from sin
So much beauty to be experienced in life Yet we only dwell on what brings us pain Love is...
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A Sickness Inside
There is a sickness inside, I can no longer hide
Its taking over everything that I cherish in life
Hatred and pain, devoured by rage
Watching my world as its burning in flames
There is this sickness inside
Fueled by the pain,all the loss and the lies
There is this sickness inside
Keeping the hatred alive, my only reason for life
There’s no way to conceal the...
December 2012
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November 2012
11 posts
My first attempt at electronic Music. I’ve...
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Drug Rituals (hard drugs)
I think it’s funny, but for some reason every drug has a special ritual. Not only that, but it also seems like every individual also has their own ritual to go with each drug that they do. Whether it’s actually doing the drug, or preparing to do the drug, there are always different procedures involved with getting high. If a person gets involved deep enough, the whole...
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I Don't Care
So many years just a different day Hopeless existence, I’ve lost my way Feeling so low, lost everything inside Watching my life as it passes me by I once lived a life with promise and hope Till I lost all my will and forgot how to cope No matter how I try, I can’t shake my past My dreams were taken and smashed Slowly time passes, loneliness is my home Now I live my life, so useless...
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Fighting For Life
Fighting for life at the end of the rope Nothing to lose, you’ve lost all hope No one will help a person so wrong No one will care when you are gone You lived your life without having a care Robbing and stealing causing despair You always take, with nothing to give Now you’ll die the way you lived It was all bound to catch up one day With all the people that you betrayed Now its too...
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If I was to Say Sorry
If I was to say sorry, would I be forgiven for my life? If I was to say sorry, would you relieve me of strife? Though I’ve tried and tried, it all turned to lies I sat and watched as my life passed me by If I was to say sorry, could I do it all again? If I was to say sorry, would I be free from my sin? My regret, can’t forget the pain of the past All these years have caught up with me...
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Destiny
Staring out into the distance, I think of what could be Is there a point to all this madness, what’s our destiny? Normal life seems so strange, it’s the same thing everyday People don’t even notice, when their dreams start to fade Conforming to a system, that’s designed for us to fail People that are remembered, have paved their own trail Being pushed out for having our own...
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One Last Fall
All the pain and the shame that the drugs represent Falling and Crawling into a fucked up life of descent Cracked up, Smacked up, you have no will to fight Don’t care, if it’s fair, this shit takes over your life Get clean for the dream, then it all just falls apart Fucking junkie so unlucky, right back to the start Rip a hole in your soul, for a life that can’t exist One more...
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How Quickly We Fall
Looking back I can’t believe the life I’ve left behind Expectations and the goals I set quickly changed with time The life I planned differs from the life I lived,everything has changed The hardest thing to except, is I’m the only one to blame I know where I went wrong, I just can’t explain why Life seem to hold the answers, all I had to do was try I let disappointment discourage me, from all that...
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Lifetime
There was a time in my life I cared about what other thought Choices in life were centered around Pleasing everybody but myself I knew what I wanted, but it didn’t make sense People were always telling me I had to change I gave into their shit, and started living a lie My values were compromised Everyone was happy, except for me My life turned to misery I stopped caring about what people...
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Artistic Wall
Everyday this artistic wall keeps building up, brick by brick I can’t seem to knock it down, but it’s something I want to fix Searching my mind for the answers, pushing on day by day The harder I try to overcome this shit, the farther I stray Can’t write, can’t draw, can’t even seem to play I keep feeling more useless with every passing day Tell me what’s going...
September 2012
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I was looking through old songs and found this,...
June 2012
1 post
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Writing Poetry (tips & Tricks)
O.k, let me just start out by saying that these are just a couple of ideas that I use when trying to write poetry. I don’t use any of these ideas with every poem all of the time, in fact most are just techniques I started to do when I got all caught up on being “Mr. Perfect!!!” I find a lot of the time I am trying to push my writing(like now). I have a small idea...
May 2012
11 posts
I realized earlier that I only had Metal loops for...
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Uninspired
So I guess I am writing this because, I have lost all my drive and inspiration. I feel like I have hit the wall and everything I try is just making me feel useless. In the last week, I have tried countless times to do SOMETHING NEW, ANYTHING!!! It just isn’t happening. I think I got out about 3 lines in a new poem, and then just erased it. Same with my music, I get out a couple...
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Junky Logic
It took me a long time to realize that Junkies are programmed to think completely different than other people. Most people worry about how they are going to pay bills, get to work, and mainly just make it day to day without losing their minds. A Junkies day consists of finding new ways to get money, so they can get high as fast as possible. The funniest(and saddest) part is, a Junky...
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Why Are You Gay?
When I was younger, I really didn’t understand why men were gay. I just couldn’t comprehend how a man could be attracted to another man. In fact, I use to joke around that I felt sorry for women, just because men are so disgusting. Then I would add, if I was a women, I could see being gay, because women are so beautiful. So for many years, I was very ignorant about the...
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I Must Be Getting Old
It’s funny to me that every generation has trouble understanding the generations after them. Growing up you always hear stories from people older than you about the struggles they had as a kid. Also, kids always have better toys than the kids older than them. I can’t even count the number of times I have wished I was a kid again. I’ve always made jokes about older people...
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Potential
My whole life I’ve heard people say “If I only had your (blank) I would do this or I would be that.” I know it is suppose to be a compliment. It’s just after hearing this statement in so many different ways, for so many years I am starting to think I am just one big disappointment!! The other statement is “You have such potential, don’t waste it!”...
April 2012
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Lost Thoughts
Well here I am, I feel like writing, but have nothing to write about!!! I was going to write about going back in time to tell yourself what to fix about your life and what you would do differently. The only problem is, I kinda feel like I have already written about this, but I went back an told myself not to do it….. Soooooo, it should be fine….(Bad Joke). I am in a...
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It's a Child Not a Choice
Well, before I start this blog, let me just say that this is my opinion, I know this is a very touchy subject. This is how I feel about abortion and people are definitely going to disagree with me, which is only expected. Everyone is entitled to what they believe, if everyone agreed on everything, life would be very boring!!! O.K., with that being said, lets get into the controversy. I...
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Just Relax
Many times I have tried to explain insomnia to people that don’t suffer from it. The answer I seem to get the most is “Just Relax.” This statement drives me crazy!!! Just relax?!?!? Damn, why didn’t I ever think of that?!?! Holy shit, all these years of going days on end without sleep and your telling me all I had to do was just relax. Oh, my god you are my savior....
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What Is Success
I must say this topic drives me crazy. In my messed up view, I only perceive success as money. The more money you have, the more successful you are. I don’t know if this has just been burned into my brain or if it really holds true. I mean look at all the rich people today that didn’t do a thing to deserve it. Does their money make them better people than me? Do they even...
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Sacrifice (the first got cut off)
I feel forsaken, it’s not a lie Over and over, I ask myself why Do I let this shit into my life In the end I have to sacrifice Another part of what I believe All the things I once achieved Taken away, there’s nothing left of me Losing what is left of my sanity Maybe it’s all built up in my head Lying to myself trying to get ahead Analyzing every word before it is said ...
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A Junky's Dream
Most people dream of life on a beautiful Island, with people waiting on them and every need met. Also, when asked if they had three wish’s, most people ask for money or women or something they think will better their lives. Junky’s think completely different. A junky only has one thing one their mind. Ask me what my heart desires and even if I am straight, I will...
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A song from my basement recordings. Consent to...
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Walking Into Reality
My actions speak as loud as my words But my words mean everything to me So you can think what you want, I don’t care If I’m crazy or I’m Lazy or just fucking upGo be your own person, leave me alone I don’t need someone like you telling me what to do I like what I am, I do what I can To keep my sanity
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Perspective of Life
The one thing I use to always say before doing anything I had doubts about, was “Fuck it, you only live once!!” This in itself is quit a profound statement. Unfortunately, now that I’m older I think I looked at it completely wrong. Which, by the way is the story of my life. To me, the statement “you only live once” always meant, do...
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Oceans Of Fury
Souls settle before the dawn Clouds climb from the sea Thunder rolls onto the shore Whispering winds are calling meDrift out into the madness Ducking through the tides Waiting for the perfect moment To drop down deep inside Sitting on the calm blue sea Out beyond the break Waiting for the perfect ride Here’s the one I’m gonna takeDropping down, deep inside Cutting through the jaws of death Back...
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Quitting to Get High
The one thing that has always been there for me is Heroin. I started dabbling with it when I was 17, then pretty much quit for about 5yrs., after I move to the beach. Then I moved back to the D.C. area I got re-acquainted with it really quick, and have been in love ever since. I’ve lost many friends, and had my heart broken over and over, but heroin(except when I’m broke...
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How Quickly We Fall
Looking back I can’t believe the life I’ve left behind Expectations and the goals I set quickly changed with time The life I planned differs from the life I lived,everything has changed The hardest thing to except, is I’m the only one to blame
I know where I went wrong, I just can’t explain why Life seem to hold the answers, all I had to do was try I let disappointment...
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Retrieve Your Soul
Time has come to retrieve your soul The debt was payed you’ve gained control Reach out and collect what’s yours Time has come to settle the score Problems arise and everyone’s dead Fixing all matters and moving ahead You don’t understand how you survived In that room you should have died Stop before work, get what you need Curiosity has planted it’s seed Your taking...
March 2012
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How It Is
Alone again…. Who the fuck cares? I don’t need someone Fucking with my head
I’m all I need So fuck someone else Cause I don’t really give a shit About anyone but myself
That how it is Its got to be this way I opened my heart You fucking ripped it away+ Who cares if I’m alone? Over and over again All my fucking life That’s how its been
It’s not gonna...
